I use this picture as an example, I don’t care if you’re a male or a female reading this, but this is how you want your partner to look at you.
When your with him and her and wether you can see it, this is true love it’s weird how I observe my friends relationships and situations and I can read wether they’re settling, made, “perfect” for each other, happy, sad no matter what they say and do.
The problem is I don’t know what I’m going to do if I’m honest, I’m so old school and old fashioned that I honestly know that I don’t know how I will now meet someone in the future, because I won’t find someone who will love me and have the same morals and values as me, and do you know what frustrates me and worries me? Is all these couples who when they’re partners aren’t around are commenting on how “fit” and “hot” someone ELSE is! Or acting like they’re single when they’re away from their partners…
Sure have a good time with your friends etc but I just cannot understand it, everytime I’ve been with a woman I’ve been married IN MY MIND, because I want to be THAT loyal, I don’t want or stare at another female, sure I’d speak and be polite etc but I wouldn’t flirt or be THAT GUY who’s always commenting on other women, especially behind my woman’s back.
Plus there’s the fact that I’m still not financially secure and that I don’t feel comfortable with my current job, my music and acting career is going well but not enough to bump into old friends Etc and for me to feel like I’ve moved forward much.
It’s been 2 years and counting I think since I saw and heard anything from Scarlett, still feels weird, still feels like I’ve been stung badly it still gets to me in moments but it has and is lessened.
I sometimes see family’s and couples and I really wanted all that, I wanted to be a father and have a child and have my own home and now that dream post Scarlett has just completely left my mind.
I would love to date again and see who’s out there but I just couldn’t go back to the beginning and start all over, I’ve been talking to girls and women I tried tinder I went our more but somewhere in me just doesn’t feel right with it.
I do feel stupid for it, but maybe I need that moment where I see Scarlett or her with another guy to really hit me in the gut, I need to get back into the gym regular and keep up with my football(soccer to American friends) and just keep pushing towards a better life.
I’m writing this because I know that there’s love out there for everyone and there’s chances everyday, but you have to be careful, there’s thorns dressed as roses and that’s what’s worrying, but I guess we can’t live in fear right?
Keep smiling, stay positive and who knows what will happen in this thing we called life.
I believe everything happens for a reason, fate is a crazy thing sometimes